Thinking about Life

I haven't written anything for ages. That doesn't mean that I haven't knitted anything, or done anything or gone anywhere. It is just because my life has been overtaken recently by a bogieman. Cancer! The thing that you always think happens to someone else. Initially I thought that I would record things as they happened, but that didn't work for me. I kept starting to write and giving up, all my energy was going into existing, and then into healing and now - we'll now I'm in the waiting stage, so it's a good time to start recording things again. 

One thing I have realised that's it's all the little things that keep you going. Not the big, dramatic moments, but the small ones, that make you laugh or smile and get you through another day. This was today's. A bottle of beer carefully placed in a shoe so it wasn't knocked over.

Now, why would anyone do that? 6 months ago I wouldn't have been capable of noticing it. 1 year ago I wouldn't have cared. Now it's the small moments that truly matter. The silly ones, the tiny things, the quiet times. The times I can just live without thinking about the future. Mindfulness. 

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